why i said yes.

Manny got down on one knee and asked me to be his wife last Wednesday, April the 14th of 2021. If I'm being honest, I held out on saying yes for a few moments because I wanted to stare at the ring and this man (the whole scene) for a bit longer. I wanted to remember every detail and I didn't want the moment to end. Finally, I said yes because I knew I took too long and I didn't want him to think I was hesitating.

You see, I said yes because of God. Because of what He revealed to me just that morning as I drove to work. However, before I get to that story, I need to tell you what happened the night before Manny asked me to be his wife.

On Tuesday night, I knew Manny would want to talk on the phone because that's what we usually do on weekdays. That night, I was tired and I knew I needed to spend time with God and really talk to Him about Manny and where we were headed in our relationship. I kept putting God off for days and this was the night I decided to intentionally talk to Him for an hour or two.

So I texted Manny and told him I couldn't talk on the phone that night.

I started journaling my prayers, I put on some worship music, I prayed the words of the songs out loud, and I just began to pour out what was on my mind. I wanted to know if I was making the right decision in wanting to marry this man. We had the serious talk about marriage and as far as I knew, Manny was searching for a ring. I asked the Lord if He approved, if I was making good choices, and I asked Him to stir my Spirit if this was not a man I should pursue. I wrote all of my questions down and waited for the Lord to answer. Then I started to fall asleep...It was near 11 o'clock at night. I fought to stay awake and listen to the Lord but I couldn't. I put my journal to the side and turned off the light and fell into a deep sleep in seconds.

Now this next part is where it gets interesting.

I woke up feeling groggy and tired on Wednesday, the 14th of 2021. By the time I got in the car to drive to work, I was more awake. I plugged my phone in to listen to my favorite song, Covenant, by Upperroom.

As the song played, I wondered about my questions I asked the Lord the night before. I felt my Spirit still reaching out to Him, knowing I had only a few minutes before I arrived to work.

Suddenly, a flash of memory. The night Upperroom sang and recorded this song, I was there. And I was crying. I was crying because I was still single with no hope for marriage.

In my early 20's, when I began to pray for the man who would be my husband and my future marriage, I didn't think my prayers would ever become a reality. I doubted I would ever be married even though I prayed and desired to be married. It was around that time when I knew the Lord spoke to me clearly in my Spirit. He promised me I would be married, that I would find a husband, and that I would have children.

That night at Upperroom, I stood there crying as they sang the song because I was wondering if the Lord would fulfill His promise to me.

The lyrics of the song say:

You make covenant with me

Surely your goodness and mercy will follow me

Mostly, they just sing that first line over and over. So I prayed and cried. I asked the Lord if He would be faithful to the personal covenant He made with me. I also wondered, did I make it up? Did He really promise me or did I imagine it? Why must I wait so long, Lord?

As I drove to work, the Lord reminded me of this prayer and my tears from that night. I felt Him in my Spirit. "Mikayla, I'm fulfilling it now. I've been faithful."

I knew what He was telling me immediately. He was answering my prayer from the night before. All of my questions about Manny, about if I was making the right decision to want to marry him. The Lord was confirming His promise; He was saying yes.

I got to work and wrote down in my journal what He said to me so I wouldn't forget. I also

wrote: "Lord, thank you. Thank you for remembering me. For loving me so well. You are great Lord. Better than I will ever know."

After work I sped over to the church. When I got there, Manny was practicing with the worship band. I sat down in a chair and ate some cheezits I had left over from lunch. Suddenly, he was right next to me.

"You guys are done practicing already?"

"Yes, are those cheezits?"

"Yeah, you want some?"

"No, but can I talk to you outside?"

"Yeah sure."